My Allegiance

With so much else going on, I haven't had a chance yet to post about my job interview. Awhile back I was talking to a private practice in Avon, but they weren't quite ready to add new people. It was Christian based and I really liked the model they practiced from. Last week they called me out of the blue and asked if I'd come in to talk with them.

The opportunity is amazing. He's looking to add someone to the practice that could eventually take over when he retires in a few years. It's a solid, established practice and it would be a good decision financially and for my career.

The problem is that I don't really know what my "career" is anymore. I'd have to work a few nights and I'd definitely lose my summers off with Evan. I only work three days per week plus about 12 other weeks off without pay throughout the year, so I don't make a lot of money. I like my job well enough, but I can't say that I'm excited about the work I do.

However, In a lot of ways I don't consider my job to really be my career. It's the place I go in between being a mom that hopefully helps us pay our mortgage. I love being home with Evan, and right now I like working somewhere that doesn't require too much of me.

During the interview I realized that even though I knew it was an excellent opportunity and one I wouldn't likely find again, I also knew that I couldn't accept it right now, and maybe not ever. I don't know what the future holds for my career, but I know that at this moment my allegiance lies at home.