Friday, May 14, 2010

Surreal

Being pregnant is so different when you already have a child. When I was pregnant with Evan, we were so consumed by his upcoming arrival that we focused on little else. As a result, I felt like I knew him better, and was more prepared for the reality that we'd be bringing him home soon.

Don't get me wrong, I know we'll be having this baby very soon, and there's no escaping the fact that I'm extremely pregnant. But it all seems much more surreal than it did with Evan. In a lot of ways we're more prepared this time around. We know what to expect, have everything we need, and we've figured out all the logistics. But I don't feel like I've had the time to dwell on the fact that in two shorts weeks, we'll be holding her in our arms. And I don't feel like I really know her yet. There are even still some days that I'm surprised by the fact I'm pregnant, and the last 9 months seem like a blur.

But, it's all about to get very real, very soon! And we're very excited to meet Aida and finally start getting to know her. I also can't wait to see how Evan handles being a big brother and having to share the attention. The big brother part I know he'll ace, it's the sharing attention part I'm a little nervous about. But, we'll all be figuring out how to be a family of four together. Like Evan says, "it's our mission!"

1 comment:

christinemm said...

The thing I struggled with, during my second pregnancy, was sorrow that I would not be able to focus all my energy and love on one child. I didn't know how a heart could grow to love two kids equally. I learned. But still the older one did have to learn patience and come second when mothering a newborn baby with more urgent needs and no ability for understanding 'wait a minute'.

Hope you have a wonderful birth.